A long awaited update and not as expected about how I pissed off people at school. Instead it is about the Lebanese government resigning. If you have not already heard check outCNN or whatever news source you go to. The Lebanese Prime Minister refused to be a stumbling block towards peace. For those who don't know a former Prime Minister Rafik Hariri was killed in a huge car bomb which many think was perpetrated by the Syrians due to a anti-Syrian stance by the former PM. Who knows who actually did it, but the most wonderful thing occurred: The people started caring. A lot.

In case you don't know much about Syria and Lebanon: Both were created in the break up of the Ottoman Empire after WWI. Lebanon was to be a mostly Christian country in the Muslim dominated region (though with Palestinian refugees and Christian flight it is now very muslim as well.) Syria was a muslim state that was essentially(read this is a very cursory description) a favor to a line of royalty who helped out the Allies. In 1973 Lebanon was engaged in a violent civil war. Syria sent troops out of concern for their own people and the Lebanese. It most likely was a noble effort in its inception but then the Syrians stuck around for thirty years.

The Lebanese have waken up. Lebanon has a reputation for being very "western." I.E. it is a consumer society that cares little for anythging else, be it religion, politics what have you as long as it can buy "stuff." Whether this reputation is enirely deserved is, as with many stereotypes and simplifications, a topic for debate. They have demonstrated their desire for self determination. To be a place that makes its own decisions. What I will wait to see if how much credit Bush takes for this(just like the dominoes of the Soviet Union, right?) and whether the US alows them to really determine themselves what is best for them (eg not trying influence the decision to have a democracy like ours.)

Essentially I like this because it gives me hope. Hoe that we too can spur change I just want to know what its going to take to get enough of us that pissed. I think it might take killing an important figure. I wish people would just wake up without violence though thats the next step to society.

there are very few pleasure left to me in life, but one of them must be driving drunk and smoking a cigarette. the quiet of the city at night. Its much easier to drive when there's no one on the road. I think we're onna be watching movies in class tomorrow cause i'll be hung over. i can hold my booze though. i wish had more time cause tjis would be longer and better. later everybody. just remember, Neil is writing this whemn he has to work the next day. not at a desk, but entertaining dallas finest spoiled children. goodnight. and it shows.

Listening to: The unauthourized biography of Rakim by Nas.

Hell yeah. Nas is dope. so someone I don't know called me twice within a minute of each other. Fuck that. will called me last night at two. I was passed out, (Why? I don't know. smoke, drink and Big Lebowski will do that do you. And yes I was alone. cry for me.) So not much to ay just wanted to get that out there. I'm still waiting. Oh my damn chair at school didn't SIGN HER LETTER OF RECOMMENDATION! How does onedo this how or why would you not sign a formal letter of recommendation? fuck. I'm out. You wanna read with me? Well then start reading now.

Lynne Cheney just likened the objections of Christian Right Congressmen to Bush's S.S. Plan to the objections of democrats on Fresh Air on NPR. Let me give you a run down. The Christian Right has said they won't support the SS plan unless Bush supports and advocates a constitutional ammendment to ban same-sex marriage. Democrats object because they don't believe private accounts will solve the problem and they think Bush is blowing the problem out of proprtion (such as suggsting that younger generation will get no money instead of the actual projections of SS only being able to pay out 75-80% In 2042 or 2052 depending on the agency.) Thats not the same thing. Objecting because they think the plan is flawed is directly logically related to the plan itself. Objecting because Bush won't force bigotry into the constitution(no matter how badly he wants to) has nothing to do with Social Security. Its not logical. Its not the same. Its that kind of logic that Conservatives thrive upon. The empty sword of Damacles kind.(Refernce!) "A republican objected to the SS reform because he wants a ban on gay marriage." "Democrats have said the won't support it either!" As if the transgression is not agreeing with the President. I'm sorry I thoght that by asking questions and disagreeing was part of why we had diverse people in the gov't. If you want goose stepping, get some guns and instill marshal law, don't laud democracy.

Dear Diary,

No No No I'm just kidding. Tonight I got a call from Katie Fritzgerald and Nicholas Zeigler (whose name i probably mispelled.) But anyway. I was not very entertaining. Sorry guys. I'm bitter hollow wreck and a shell of my former self.
I have a lot an by a lot I mean a lot of pent up anxiety right now. I want to hear from New school whether I got in or not. And DePaul. shit I'm so worried I'll be stuck in Dallas another year I think I'm going to need to quit regardless before I start randomly crying at night until that eventually bleeds into randomly crying during the day.
So, the gist is I miss my friends. I can't make new ones like them. All th people I know are old and/or married except one or two. i like them, but their lives are way different. I'm really depressed tonight for some reason. maybe I'm over-reacting. Or maybe something really is missing. This makes me wonder if i can even be happy in New York if I go there. Bah i'll stop beingwhiney and depressing and focusing on the bad. Not enough energy to talk about the good of today so... goodnight.

Someone is banging on the door next door. Its on the opposite side of the house from my window. THEY ARE NOT FUCKING HOME! or they don't want to let you in. Either way you need to stop banging.

My students were all excited that it was going to snow tonight on the forecast. i told them we wouldn't be off school. Anyway the rain is is winning right now. Rain: 1 Snow: 0
So anyway, they(the students) of course ridiculed me and told me i was not a weather man but only a theology teacher. To which I replied, true but I still know more about the proper weather conditions for snow than a bunch of people who see snow once every other year.
Me:6,998.654 them: one half
I get a kick out of winning intellectual battles with 16 year olds.

I was thinking about that call the other day Philip. i don't want to give too much away without asking, but that's still fucked up.

Onward and upward. No Law and Order today. i'd seen them all to recently. i tried to buy Winning Eleven today, but it's not in stock until tomorrow. That kind of fucked my evening plans.(Which I know are sad. Pity me)

I'm getting bored in preparation for leaving Dallas. i've gotten four down, one to go. Grad School applying blows.

i hate that I can't see over or around SUV's. if a real car is in front of you, you can see if the person in front of them is turning (that's assuming they actually utilize their turn signal, which in dallas, they do not.) Whoa, that was random. Go read PJ's blog. Its much better than mine (though less frequently updated, PHILIP.) except you probably are PJ, because I think all of three people probably read this and one of the other ones is me.

I'm out.