Monday, December 27, 2004

I think I'm going to stop coming home for more than like two days. I've gotten very used to running my life on my own and my family thinks that is somehow means i don't care about them. I do I just don't need dinner made for me or need to be checked up on. I want to have unshared space where you do not go unless invited or preceeded by of all things a knock. I know I'm too old to bitch about my parents but its crap like this that me not want to come home in the first place. If they want me home, they need to respect the fact that i don't need them for much of anything anymore and therefore could just as easily not come back here ever again.

Moving onI'm going insane about being stuck in the house all the time still. I can't wait until i leave the hell that is cincinnati ohio for chicago where i can get on a train and go whereever i want. all cities should have public transport.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

I'm in Cincinnati. I'm bored. I wish i could drive while i'm here but my parents won't let me drive any of their cars. Its kind of ridiculous but whatever. As if this city weren't boring enough i can't go anywhere. I'm giong to start writing short works of fiction to pass the time. So my grad school applications are coming due soon. I'm kind of anxious that my profs won't get me their recommendation letters on time. Who am i kidding I'm also worried I won't have my own shit together on time. I'm exactly tearing it up getting my personal statement up to par or finalizing my writing sample. Anyway tomorrow maybe. I need for everyone here to go away so I can't work in peace and quiet. Alright enough for now. Analyze something else later.

Sunday, December 12, 2004